Yep. I'm gonna lay it all out on a very upfront line. My uterus is broken . . . or at least on strike (I told you I was going to be a tad dramatic). This is not new. Nor is it something that I like to talk about. However, it's the main reason behind all of the current changes in my life and why my blog has been so hit or miss at times. I have Stage 5 endometriosis and now am the proud owner of a "belt" with FIVE surgery notches engraved deeply in the old-@$$ leather. It has been a battle for the past 9 years and I lost this year, so to speak. I had surgery about two months ago, but it didn't go all that well. Sure, I managed to get a bit of relief, but I have too much scar tissue at this point. Therefore, my pelvic pain will be chronic. I have come to terms with this as I have lived/worked/existed with it for years. However, this year and this surgery led me to a new and somewhat sad conclusion. I am stepping out of the classroom. It was a decision I NEVER thought I would have to make . . . one I never WANTED to make. However, it has become a decision that I MUST make. ((SIGH)) The always sweet Leigh from the Applicious Teacher coined it for me perfectly . . . I'm a "Displaced Teacher." Don't feel too sorry for me (I've done my fair share of pit dwelling). I promise that I am still smiling these days. As Red told us, "Get busy livin', or get busy dyin'."
Deciding what to take and what to leave. After 10 years in the classroom, this was so difficult. |
A SERIOUS ADDICTION
My name is Kelley and I have an addition . . . it's golf. Not sure what you thought I might say here :P Yes, I still love my glasses of vino while I'm cookin' up a storm, but golf has reached a new level of desire for me. I poured myself into my golf game after surgery . . . as soon as I could swing a club. It's the perfect active and calming outlet (as long as you can move past those $#@& shots). The courses are always so beautiful and peaceful. I even go out by myself now. If you don't golf, I suggest that you give it a go this summer. Hit up a range and see what happens. You may hate it . . . but, you might end up really loving it.
HEART WRENCHING NEWS
Alright, so I'm pushin' 37 and I don't have kids of my own. Therefore, my pets have become my babies - we have a dog and two cats. Well, one pet in particular takes the cake. Henry Dolling . . . the stray kitty I adopted two years ago is the definite front-runner in my book. I'm gonna go ahead and say it here (it's okay to judge just a little). I am a cat lady. If I had a bigger yard or a barn and my husband didn't put his foot down, I'd have
With all of this said, I was hit with some killer news last weekend. Henry has FIV. What is this you ask? Oh, well, it's just Kitty HIV. Yep. You read that right. My cat has flippin' AIDS. I didn't even know that this existed. At first I thought the vet tech was pullin' a nasty punk on me as I ironically made the joke that waiting for Henry's blood test results was like waiting for an AIDS test at your friendly neighborhood clinic. I guess that's what I get for being somewhat crass (something I am very good at in my old age). Well, anyway, I knew it was bad when the doc wouldn't look at me when she walked in the room. (Kelley made another situation awkward . . . surprise, surprise.) Who knew that I actually called out what was indeed wrong with my little sweetie??!! #palmtoforehead
Waiting for the test results at the vet. The longest 30 minutes EVER! |
Told ya he was my best buddy :) |
THE BIG SHOW
In the middle of all of this (moving out of my classroom, the kitty meltdown, and recovering from surgery), I was contacted by my old school district to host a 2 hour presentation on music and movement in regards to reading instruction. I jumped at the chance to return to my old haunt and share my outlandish ideas with one of my all time favorite crews. This went down on Thursday afternoon and it was tons of fun. My old super walked in and said he could tell I was back on campus . . . tee-he-he . . . I had the educational tunes and 80s re-mixes blaring (before, after, and during).
I poured hours into my session (it actually proved to be a glorious distraction) and am working on trying to get it into a free webinar for all you alls. We shall see if I am tech savvy enough to actually pull such a thing off :) Here's hoping SPMS can show me the way!
Powered by endless cups of black coffee. |
It's official. I'm OUTDATED. I came to this humbling realization a few months ago. Well, I'm doing something about it. My BLOG is getting a facelift. I had that moment back in the spring when I visited my page and gasped a bit. I have been so preoccupied with everything these days that I didn't notice that moment that I became quiet passe. I like to equate it to that pair of shoes or favorite shirt that you hold on to for one season too long. Do you know what I mean? That moment when you find it hiding in your closet and finally realize that it's time to let it go :P
I hired a graphic designer out of the UK and found a killer WordPress gal on Etsy. It's a slow process, but we are getting there. Look for the change over to take place mid-July. I'm super excited to see how it all comes together in the end. Here's a sneak peek . . .
Alright, that's enough about me. I know it's rather a strange post . . . one that has nothing to do with sharing fun ideas or strategies. And, it feels rather narcissistic ((GULP))). However, I felt the need to get back to my roots and draft a post that screamed real life. (It's ain't always rainbows and unicorns over at The Factory.) As everything hit, I lost my voice there for a bit and had to recharge. It always helps me to sit quietly when the &$%# hits the fan in an attempt to gain some valuable perspective . . . things could be a heck of a lot worse. I am actually feeling pretty lucky these days.
If I have learned anything about the education biz (both in and out of the classroom), it's so important to take time for you when an opportunity presents itself. Everything will be waiting for you when you're ready and/or able to check back into the game. Well, I'm finally ready now.
I will be back this week with some useful information . . . that actually pertains to the classroom. I have a series of posts planned that I think will be just the ticket for summer break. Big hugs, y'all. Thanks for taking the time to come back to see me.
You are a rockstar, my friend. All the best on your new adventures. Next time you're in the City, hit me up and we'll grab a beverage. Hugs!
ReplyDelete-Andrea
Thanks friend . . . I heart ya! A beverage sounds fab. I'll be down again soon.
DeleteSo sorry for your troubles, Kelley, but I know that you will rock that new job! I'll be praying for your health and your kitty.
ReplyDeleteBig . . . BIG hugs to you. Thanks for always taking the time to write. Things are turning around. I can't wait to see what this year brings :)
Delete**HUGS*** You are amazing...and I can't wait to hear all about this new adventure you are taking!
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Mrs. Thigpen's Kindergarten
Nicki . . . thanks so much my friend. You are one of a kind.
DeleteKelley, I am sending you a ton of well wishes, good vibes, and happy summer goodness! YOU GOT THIS GIRL!!!! I am looking forward to seeing your blog makeover. I have been "wearing that old tshirt" wayyyyyy toooo loooong and hopefully your new design will inspire me to get my butt in gear with my own makeover.
ReplyDeleteThanks for droppin' me a line, Julie. That old "shirt" sure is cozy and I feel like I am shopping in a store that is WAY TOO young for me (snicker . . . snicker . . . tech stuff is hard). When it's all said and done I know I'll love my new style. Hehehehehe. Happy Summer to you!!!
DeleteI know you will be amazing in your new position!
ReplyDeleteThanks, Jodi. Big hugs to you :)
DeleteHi Kelley! It's great to see you back, but I'm sorry to hear about your health issues. Hope your new position will just what you need-- it sounds amazing! I can relate to so many things in your post :) I left the classroom after last school year, and while I was not having any major health problems, the job change has worked wonders on my mental and physical health. I am so sorry to hear about your kitty! I am sure he will enjoy all of the spoiling! I LOVE the sneak peak of your new blog design! I just changed mine up for the first time, which is ironic because I'm pretty sure your blog is what led me to enter (and win!) a free blog design contest from your blog designer... small world! I hope you have a relaxing summer!!
ReplyDeleteIsn't that nuts . . . that was SO long ago. I saw that you got a re-work on your blog . . . it's about time I did that too! Thanks so much for droppin' in to say hello.
DeleteI'm not normally someone who comments on blogs, but it seems like a lot of people have shared endometriosis stories recently. I'm a teacher too but not a blogger, and it's sad to know it has meant you need to leave the classroom. As someone who's been on pain meds for "dysmenorrhea" since age 11, I've had doctors say maybe you have it but offered no solutions. How were you diagnosed?
ReplyDeleteEmail me . . . I'd be happy to chat with you. I was diagnosed 9 years ago. My doc was savvy enough to do exploratory surgery to see what was going on. kelleydolling@gmail.com
DeletePS --- teaching in pain is so hard. My hat is off to you.
DeleteKelley, this post was so you! Thanks for sharing your tough times with all of us and congrats on the new position. Super excited to see where this all take you. You are incredible, friend!
ReplyDeleteThanks my dear . . . that is exactly what I was going for. Glad my nutso personality shined through a bit. Big hugs, friend.
DeleteGood luck Kelley!
ReplyDeleteBest regards,
Rosemary.
Thank you!
DeleteKelley,
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear about your health struggles. No fun! I know it will be hard leaving the classroom but I think this position sounds perfect for you! Good luck in your future endeavors! I can't wait to hear all about it!
~Katherine